Currently

Currently I'm...

taken pics when i sat outside

gotta b stylish even in polo's

got a little sunburn on the nose

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Watching - Upstairs/Downstairs  - Not as good as Downton Abbey, but it's not bad. Always need some british drama in my life. I'm also watching Grey's Anatomy. I started again from the beginning. I'm currently on end of the 3rd season. The episodes will soon be new to me.
Listening - Elevation Podcast. So good, every time!
Sipping - Starbucks: Latte (soy or skim)  Scooters: Soy Chai Latte and I've been sipping Kombucha at the room
Reading - Just finished The Book That Transforms Nations by Loren Cunningham. Soooo good and so powerful. It re-ignited the fire inside me! I also finished The Atonement Child by Francine Rivers. My favorite by her was Redeeming Love still. I'm starting Captivated tomorrow!
Anticipating - Vacation next week!
Thinking about - Goals that are set before me to complete!
Working On - Not eating junk while I'm traveling for work.
Eating - Besides the junk, tons of good food from the meal plan for Summer Shred. She's doing it next month as well. I'm doing it! Gotta start a lifestyle. It's not going to happen over night!

where in the world

I've started many things, I just haven't been documenting them here. I've been working on my goals, sometimes failing, sometimes succeeding. Depression has started to set in. I'm feeling quite tired and spent.

Right now, I'm working up in Omaha for a work and it's hard to eat healthy when your working 12 hour days. I had been doing well eating properly and working out, but since I've been in omaha, my lifestyle choices have become poorer and poorer.

I realized that I was aiming for perfection instead of aiming to be a Daughter of the King. I seem to take God off the throne a lot and try and do my best. The thing is, God never fails, I always fail, and somehow my biggest failure is failing to see that.

God has given me those goals, He has called me to so much more than I am at the moment. I have potential. Not just the potential I can produce, but the potential He has put in me! It's Him through me.

It's my cycle. I thought after YWAM, I would have conquered that cycle. But, I'm starting to realize it's not my power. It's God's. I have to daily lay down my life at His feet. I can't surrender and then try and be my own "god." That's not how surrender works!

God has called me to do certain things that I haven't fulfilled, and I'm realizing quite quickly that He hasn't silenced His voice, but I have! I believe in an active God. One Who speaks and is involved in our daily lives if we let Him be. There's nothing wrong with going your own way if your striving for mediocrity. But, He has called us to be so much more.

Ranting and ravings help me hash out what's been going on. I honestly don't like blogging just when something's going on. But I need to start living under His expectations and not mine. If i start living under His, I won't be disappointed or feel alone.

How do you realize you've taken the "reigns" from God?

One Day Without Shoes 2013

You know I love Toms! The shoes that is. They are comfy, cute, and convenient. They also send a pair of shoes to a child in need -- They call it one for one. Every year, to raise awareness, they host the ONE DAY WITHOUT SHOES.

Last year in October, I went  a whole day without shoes! Raising awareness is good. I know some of us can't take our shoes off, but let's raise awareness of all the children who go barefoot throughout the world.

I may still be chilling around the house, but I can raise awareness through my social media. I will be taking a picture of my feet and sharing it via Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram.

Join me! If you would like information: Visit ONE DAY WITHOUT SHOES.

Here are some stats from the ONE DAY WITHOUT SHOES website:

HOOKWORM

A SOIL- TRANSMITTED PARASITE THAT AFFECTS 740 MILLION PEOPLE WORLDWIDE

Impact

Long-term physical effects include stunted growth, decreased cognitive development, anemia and chronic fatigue.

Studies show that children affected by hookworm are 20% less likely to go to school and earn 40% less in adult life.

Solution

Prevention and treatment includes education, medication, improved hygiene and sanitation and protection from soil.

Why Shoes?

Giving Partners like IMA World Health give de-worming medication along with shoes to children, helping them stay healthy with a combination of prevention and treatment.

SOURCE: Bleakley, 2007 & WHO

Currently

Currently, I am... 

Listening: Elevation Church Podcast. I love Steven Furtick! His messages always speak to me!

Reading: Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers

Watching: Downton Abbey Season 3. I am on the last episode, it makes me sad.

Thinking about: My to-do list!

Anticipating: Tomorrow! I have a big surprise!

Wishing: That Spring would come back!

Sipping: Mexican Hot Chocolate - My new favorite warm drink!
Praying: For everyone at the Boston Marathon!
Making me happy:  Well, it's not this weather! My tax refund!

Beautiful Battlefields a Book Review

Book: Beautiful Battlefields
Author: Bo Stern
Rating: ★★★★★

This book was captivating. It talks about the battles we face and how to live through them. Bo Stern, a woman that has had her fair share of battles, didn't know she would be fighting for her families life, when her husband was diagnosed with ALS. Bo may have bruises and wounds, but she is not defeated! "This battle is not destroying us. In fact, in the midst of this trauma and turmoil, God's power to use every bad thing for our good is making us more beautiful than we have ever been."

Bo walks through practical ways to fight. Her faith carries her through the war that is raging on against her family, and she is learning to trust God even when all seems impossible. She is not afraid of sharing her blunders and doubts, her failures and heart issues. But she is always pointing back to her Savior. The One who holds all in His hands.

Her story is real, so there is credibility. She shares stories of countless others who have gone through battles. What makes her story so unique is her writing style. I felt like I was sitting in a coffee shop the entire time chatting it up with an old friend who had sound and biblical advice!

If you're going through a battle or not, you should read it. Since I have a personal connection with Bo (pastor's sister in-law), it may seem that I am biased. And I may be. But, now I can share her story with those that may need to hear it!

Bo also blogs! She shares up to date about her husband, ALS, being a grandmother and mother, and so much more!

Reading Update

Fiction: 

• Tribulation Force 
• Fellowship of the Ring by JRR Tolkien (on nightstand)
• The Horse and His Boy by CS Lewis (reading)

Non-Fiction:

• Crazy Love by Francis Chan (reading)
• The Book That Transforms Nations by Loren Cunningham (reading)
• Beautiful Battlefields by Bo Stern (Check out review here)
• The Book of Judges from The Bible

Magazines:

• Relevant Jan/Feb (on nightstand)
• Women's Health Current Issue (reading)

As you can see, I haven't gotten very far, but I'm hoping to get a massive amount done this week! The Horse and His Boy I'm restarting because it's been awhile since I started it. But, it should only take one sitting. The Fellowship of the Ring may take a few months. I also picked up Redeeming Love from the Library. I have a reading addiction! 

What have you been reading?

Goals for the Next 6 Months Part 2

This is the second post of a 2-part series.

Check out the first part here:

Yesterday we talked about the mountains I will be climbing. I covered weight and my blog. Let's see where today brings us.

Mountain #3: Stuff (yes I labeled it stuff).

1. I have accumulated so much crap. That’s the best way to put it. I’ve gone through 75% of my room cleaning out all the junk. 
   
1. Things are sitting in boxes in my closet. I’m planning on having a garage sale this summer. Then I can save money and get rid of all my wonderful “treasures” I no longer need.
2. This makes it easier to “breathe” in my room. Slowly my items were suffocating me. I will expand on this later.
2. Goal – Junk completely gone by SEPTEMBER.

Mountain #4: Sewing

1. There is no reason why I shouldn’t be sewing. I have everything to do it! The only thing getting in the way is my apathy.
1. I will be creating a list of things I’d like to make with the materials I have and work at it.
2. With junk cleared out, I will have more space to work and create.
2. Goal – Have at least 3 garments made by SEPTEMBER.

Mountain #5: Guitar

1. God called me to play guitar when I was in Cambodia. I made many excuses when I was back in the states:
1. I don’t have an acoustic, no time
2. Well, now I have one and the time!
2. Goal – Be able to play in front of an audience by SEPTEMBER

All of these mountains I’ve been battling for years. Ignoring the massiveness of them all. Pretending they don’t exist, or ignoring the fact that I have “problems.”

Kicking apathy one mountain at a time! What are some mountains you need to climb? I’d love to hear from you, let’s encourage each other!

Lyric - Nothing I Hold Onto // United Pursuit

Goals for the Next 6 Months Part 1

I have many goals or as I'm calling them "mountains” to climb. I like this analogy, because if I want to accomplish my goals, I'm going to have to climb to the top of the mountain. So many times, I just chill in the middle of the mountain, not even trying to climb but stupidly staying in the same place.

This happens in all facets of our lives, spiritually, physically, mentally, etc.

A few weeks back, I wrote in my journal (which has been missing my pencil these last few days - post about why we lose our routine to come later) talking about some goals or "mountains" I'd like to climb. I will go into more detail throughout the weeks, highlighting different ones each week. But it's always nice to share and have some accountability.

 I didn't want to share them until I had started living them out, I wanted to already be on the mountain and not just staring at it.

Without further ado, here are the mountains I must climb if I ever want to see the other side.

Mountain #1 - Current Weight

1. I've struggled with this one for as long as I can remember. I've also been to this mountain, tried to climb, failed, walked away, and pretended I never experienced the whole fall.
1. Now, I know what you're saying, Lauren, "weight isn't important," "love the way you are," "we don't look at you differently." Thankfully I'm not obese, nor does my weight show as much as it should. But, I am at an uncomfortable weight. I'm overweight and I know it. Let me address those three statements I just made:

                                                     i.     "weight isn't important" – false, weight is important. Size is what's not important. Size should never make you feel inferior, bad, or big. But, your weight tells you how healthy you are. But, weight isn't the real issue, it’s your BMI! Get it checked to see where you are. Being in the obese and overweight category is bad for your health and leads to so many complications.

                                                      ii.     "love the way you are" – I do love the way I am. But I want to love the “way I am” twenty years from now!

                                                        iii.     “we don’t see you differently” – Whenever someone says that to me, I laugh because, honestly I don’t care what others think. I live under the standards of a Higher Being. Which leads me to my second statement.

2. God has told us our bodies are a temple.
   
   Which means I can’t be treating it like a dump. I haven’t always treated my body well, inside or out, I’m a steward, and that means being responsible.
3. God specifically has told me to get into gear. I’ve been called to the nations, so I should be able to function in all of them. Because I started getting into gear before I left for Cambodia, it was easier to walk long distances, but not all terrains are created equal.

    2. Goal – Lose x amount of weight by SEPTEMBER.

Mountain #2: My blog – Ren Was Here

1. This has been another frequent topic of discussion on my blog. I go in spurts of writing. Consistently one week, then I’m MIA for the rest of the month.
1. This is getting easier. I have over a month’s worth of material to work with. I actually have filled out my calendar. It’s exciting. I really want to get this blog off the ground.
2. I love writing, and one day I will write a book. Until then, I can share what’s on my mind on this blog. I’ve come to the point that I’m writing whether people read it or not. I use to be in it to “win it.” Gather as many followers as fast as possible. But, that’s not what this blog is about. It’s about my relationship with Jesus. I’m not ashamed of my faith and I want the world to know! So I can encourage others and be open and honest!
2. Goal – Blog consistently.

Check out tomorrow for more mountains!

Currently

Currently, I am... 

Listening: Hillsong United Zion via Spotify. This album is top-notch. Wish they were touring close to NE!

Reading: Beautiful Battlefields by Bo Stern. I was suppose to have a book review out on Thursday, it's just taking me longer than I thought to get through it.

Watching: Downton Abbey Season 3. Finally. I've given up most of my shows, but I do love my british dramas!

Thinking about: The week. Need to make a schedule. Finishing touches on my room. Work on some projects.

Anticipating: Warm weather!

Wishing: That budgets did themselves. 

Making me happy:  Jesus. He's not my current, but my always

This week has been a good week. I wasn't planning on posting. But I've got the writing itch. I'm ok with that. I've been writing in my journal almost everyday for the past three weeks, and it's helped me remember a few things! 

Blessings!

The Art of Letter Writing

Before I came back to the states, I was feeling a tug. Just a small one at first. A tug to stay connected to the friends I had just made. A tug to re-kindle friendships long lost forgotten. And the tug to keep up with my friends where I live.

But how? When social media is becoming more and more about "self" and less and less about being social. When sending a text doesn't quite cut it. When the person never answers on the other end. What do you do?

As a child my favorite part of my day was getting mail. I would sometimes look out the window and wait for the postman (or woman) to deliver the mail. I loved perusing through catalogues, devouring magazines, and reading answered letters. Now all I get are a few credit card offers and occasionally an unwanted catalogue.

I love writing and being written to. So, I have picked up the art again. Because it can be an art. I love writing in cursive and block letters. Decorating the envelopes and tossing them into the mailbox. I tried a few years ago, joining a few pen pal "clubs". And I even made a few friends. But it would simmer after awhile because there was no deeper connection.

Watching Jane Austen films didn't help the bug. They made me itch and long for a pen. Longing to fill blank spaces with musings and soliloquies.

But, I'm determined to keep in touch with my friends. I've been a poor example in not returning notes to even the closest of friends. Sending them notes, letters, and postcards on a whim or planned.

You don't need much to write. Is there someone you know who could use a thoughtful note? Surprise them. Looking for fun stationary? Support someone on Etsy! Or like me, you've found a whole supply of unused cards that you can fill with thoughts and dreams.

I hope this has inspired you!